Honest Tea

I hope everyone had a nice holiday and that you are finding time for yourself as things get increasingly more scheduled.  I’ve been thinking a lot about Kath’s beautifully written response in her interview about what she looks for in blogs. This phrase keeps going through my mind:

“I love it when the questions are answered, does she cook? Does she struggle? Is she healthy? Authenticity is the word.”

I don’t know how authentic I have been here. I try really hard to keep my worlds separate. If you flex those creativity muscles too much, it’s hard to be taken seriously as an attorney, and there’s a flip side to that for being too serious to be creative. At the Love Affair photography workshop, Millie Holloman {who is a thoughtful teacher, savvy business woman, and all around great person} talked about a group of people as “Creatives” {as in, “if you ask a room full of Creatives to do xyz”} and that phrase really stuck with me. Am I a capital-C Creative? It’s like saying you are a capital letter {W}riter or {A}rtist or {P}hotographer. It always stops on my tongue. It’s easier with law. You get licensed and then you can say that you are an attorney.  The credentials aren’t so clear for a part-time creative like me. But, I’m going to try to take notes from Kath and choose to be a capital {A} authentic and forget the rest of the worry.

I saw this interview with Taylor Swift a few nights ago and she said this:

The fans are the ones who have given me the most love this year.  I’m thankful for that.  But I’m also thankful that when I go to sleep at night I get to know that I’ve been myself that day.  And I’ve been myself all the days before that.  And I’m just really thankful to have been able to do that.

Love her.

I hope that I can say the same. I know I have been myself all of those days, but I’ve held a lot back here. But my goal for 2010 is to be as authentic here as I can be and to answer those questions.

I cook some. I struggle lots. I am healthy but could be healthier. And my heart gets broken all of the time. And moments like this make me so happy that sometimes I think that I’ll burst into a thousand drops of water. It’s true.